Scared

I am scared to step in now. I am scared that it will all come flooding in.  
It feels like trying to get in a door which has been long shut on me.  
It isn't just another place, just another city.  
It is your home, more so than mine is mine.  
It is the home that I wanted for me,  
More than I ever owned mine. 
I am scared to see the airport. I am scared to step out.  
I am scared to look around the way I used to, 
I know I will not see that blue, I know I will not see you.  
I am scared to step in their car 
I am scared that I will wait,  
For us to be alone 
Only together we will never be 
I am scared to see those places that they will try to show 
Those places that you took me to, which they will never know 
I am scared to eat a bite, scared to take a sip 
While every sense haunts me, with memories from each trip 
I am scared to know that 
Every second of each day 
You will be so close 
But will never cross my way 
I am scared to sleep those nights 
Alone with everyone 
Your arms will not engulf me 
Probably around someone 
I will be scared to come back here 
Back to this place 
This place that was mine 
Till you took it away